The next day after exams

hmm... well, although I did mention tat "there's no way I'm gonna put pics of my life" in my 2nd last post, I did promise karyn that I'd post this, so I guess I'd have to take back what I said... ^^;

actually, I was going to blog about my life in that sense, but it was more that I like to talk about movies, so I'd give comments & I'd get to put some nice pics at the same time XD but I forgot to mention movie pics, it slipped my mind... ^^;

we did see a movie, but I'll blog about it in the next post...

so, what happened was basically immediately after exams, on wed (exams finished on tue), karyn & I planned to go out together *btw, she said tat only ppl with no life wldn't go out on the day after exams ;-P)but we both went on9 until 2 am, so normally at this point, you'd expect ppl to wake up late & all that, rite?

wrong! XP she had to come early to my house that morning due to transport issues, & the time she came was at 7.15 am. The things young ppl do these days... ^^; but honestly, it's the 1st time any of my friends ever came to my house so early, but since she had a reason for it, I still consider her normal, but actually, I really wouldn't mind anyone coming early cos then it means that we spend longer time together, or have more fun together haha.

anyway, our plan was basically quite relaxed, cos most young ppl don't plan much normally lol XP we basically planned to see the movie "enchanted" & stay in the bookshop to read. but normal ppl won't go together to a bookshop to read, but we wanted to try it out... ;-D cos it's good to be different from other ppl, but not in a bad way of cos... ;-P

anyway, things didn't really go as planned, but we did see the movie... I'll comment about it in my next post... we didn't really get to read in the bookshop which is too bad, but we still had fun otherwise... rather, you could say more fun than reading in a bookshop together...

btw, I forgot to mention tat we went midvalley, so the bookshop was mph... before seeing the movie, cos we had enough time, we went to pets wonderland cos I wanted to, & besides the animals are cute~ ^^

some pics will show wat it is tat we saw...

the 1st things we saw were the cats

fishies! XP

argh~ so gosh-darn cute! XD

aww, isn't tat cute? they look like they're kissing~ ^^;

I dunno why, but I like to see this pic. I guess seeing them all huddled & squished together is cute... ^^;

I put nearly all the pics cos I cldn't resist ^^; well, ppl shldn't mind cos it's cute anyway ;-P

also, cos I like those things like horoscopes & fortunes & so on, we saw a machine & I wanted to try it out. but the stupid thing wouldn't work! to be accurate, what happened was it didn't accept my money (it only accepted 20 cents coins), so yeah, it's their loss...

then, we saw another machine!

the one tat didn't work juz now was one tat supposedly reads ur palms, & it's a machine tat I saw since I was young & alwiz wanted to try it out, but never managed to... the 2nd machine though, I haven't seen before...

it's a machine that tells ur luck based on ur horoscope... so, we decided to try it out... & I kinda remembered tat karyn is the same star as me, cos ur bdays were quite close, so tat's another funny coincidence... & so we managed to save a little bit of money tat day ;-P

well, the 1st thing it wrote was "your lucky day is wednesday" & I found tat highly amusing because that day was wednesday! not that I believed in it, in a way, I was kinda sceptical in the sense tat I was wondering whether it said the same day for all stars or not, but I doubt it... ;-P

well, after tat, we barely made it in time for the show, & after the show, we decided to do what we originally planned for the day which was to read in mph. but, to read, first you'd have to take a book 1st. so, u could say that we spent most of our time looking for a book to read rather than reading the book itself ;-P

actually, I felt that we kinda lost sight of our objective cos we were too busy having fun XP & we basically went around the whole bookshop a few times looking at all the books... & I found out about the more popular or famous stories which I wouldn't have known otherwise cos I'm not interested in the 1st place...

also, while browsing, it did occur my mind (& it made me sigh ^^;) that if I wanted to read a happy gay (as in homosexual ;-P) story, I don't think I would find one available... ;-( but I guess it can't be helped, so I should be satisfied with my comics ;-)

but we did come across sth funny, although actually I didn't notice it, karyn did... but it made us laugh a lot, although you may now wonder at our sense of humour ^^;

I hope you noticed what was different & slightly odd in this picture...



but if you don't, the "chick-lit" is supposed to be spelt as "chic lit" ;-P

how insulting~ ^^;

anyway, I don't want to rant, so to cut this story shorter (since it's quite long already), we didn't do anything particular after that... & so we decided to go home.

cos there was sth else we planned to do that day... & that was to make a cake! XD
because we had enough time & I thought she'd like the idea that she'd get to eat the cake that she baked (as well as the fact that I do have the equipment & ingredients available), so that's basically what happened...

instead of going into elaborate detail, I'll juz show u the pics of the general process... ;-D

1st part: ingredients

this is floor that is sieved... you have to sieve the flour, or else you get a lumpy cake ^^;



we were making coffeecake, so the coffee is mixed in with the floor (it's sieved too)



haha, this is what bored ppl do, or rather beginners... I mentioned that she didn't have enough space for an "a" but she wouldn't listen... XP



next, you have to separate the egg yolk from the egg white, because you have to beat the egg white... this is mine



& this is karyn's... lol XP well, it's reasonable bcos she's a beginner... plus, the fact that that stupid holder is so lousy cos after that I kept on breaking it too T_T;



this is what the egg white looks like when it's being beaten lol ;-D



ooh, all fluffy~ XD



yeah, we had to add brown sugar to the egg white

2nd part: making the cake itself

this is the amount of butter in the cake... which normally applies to most cakes, so you shouldn't be eating cakes for a while after seeing this, but you may also forget this fact when you taste or see a cake XP



not only tat, we have to add sugar!!! truly cakes are frightening, the amount of calories & sugar &... well, there are a lot of unhealthy things that humans consume... only those who make it would probably know just how harmful it is ;-P



this is how we put the sugar in... ;-D

& this is the machine tat makes life so much easier as well as more effiicient XD it's also fun to see the process of mixing lol XP

after sugar, you add egg...



& milk...


for the purpose of not grossing ppl out by certain graphics, we did not take pics of what the cake mixture looks like after the egg & milk has been added haha ;-P

after adding the egg & milk, we took it out of the machine & put it into a separate container, cos supposedly it'll be better to mix the floor manually... so this pic is after the floor has been mixed, which is the last stage...

then, the mixture is put into a pan...



& put into the oven! XD

voila! a cake is made~ ^__^

now tat wasn't so hard, was it? ;-P

so yeah, tat was basically wat happened in tat day, which felt quite long to me, to be honest... ;-) which shows how much things you can do in a day, but if you don't bother to remember it, or write it down, it will eventually be forgotten ^^;

so, I'm encouraging u to write!!! XP but, I'm tired, so I'm gonna go~ ^^;

btw, I can't wait to write my next post, but it may not be appopriate considering the fact tat it'd probably be about christmas, but it'll be posted after christmas is over ^^;

ah well, I'm too slow to post before christmas, so it can't be helped~ ;-P

btw, I'll be going genting for christmas~ my 1st time haha ;-)

so, I'll say this in advance: MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! XD

hope u get lots of presents~ ^^

EXAMS OVER!!!

finally, my exams are over, yay~ ;-D

but sadly, I didn't do well for the most impt paper, so I'm hoping & praying that I don't fail... >_<;
& after I finished that particular exam, I felt like crying, & I would if I could, but I guess I'm not that kind of person, cos I didn't...

anyway, to continue on a more happier note (correction: I know it should be happier without the "more", but I'm trying to emphasize here ;-P), since it's over, it's no use crying over spilt milk, so I shld juz enjoy wat little time I have as my holiday ^^;

u could say this is my t0-do list, but since it's holidays, the point is to do whatever you feel like doing at the spur of the moment... ^^

download (which is what I do nearly all the time anyway)
read comics (obviously, I'd like to enjoy what I download ;-P)
read storybooks (I only like reading fiction, unfortunately, & love stories at that)
read fanfiction (I'd have to search online for it though, which can sometimes be tiring)
watch TV (if I have time, cos there's a lotta dramas that I didn't get to watch since the beginning of this year)
chat on forums (I wanted to do this sometime during sept, now feel a bit lazy tho)

& yeah, tat's about it... actually, there are quite a lotta things I need to do in a detailed way, but I don't really wanna mention it, cos it's boring & probably only I will understand it... & what I wrote about is kinda what I want to do, not what I should do or have to do, those are different...

oh yeah, actually, blogging is another thing, but also feel lazy, & yet, now is the best time to blog about as many things as I want to say... ^^

so I hope I can blog as much as possible, considering the time I take to post sth... ^^;

which reminds me, that I wanted to mention this... although I said that I'll be sharing my opinions & whatnot, that actually included shows I watched, because that's one of the things where I can put up one or two pics hahahaha XP

because I like to talk about certain shows, especially when it made an impact on me, but normally, I tend to ponder about the show after watching it, so it shows what kind of ppl there are in this world, because a lotta ppl I know don't think about the show after watching it, which is kinda sad to me, but on the other hand, maybe they're not wasting their time by doing so, like me... hehe... ;-P

so, this is my starting post for my holiday... & we'll see how many things I can say during this short period of time hahahahahaha XP

juz a pic, or two

I love pics~ ^__^ well, generally speaking, that is... ;-)

which makes me feel that my blog may be a little... boring, you know? but there's no way I'm gonna put pics of my life (although I did consider it once), but I did call my own blog "secrets" for a reason, & basically, the reason why it may not be updated often is either because I'm lazy (which may be quite often), or that I don't really have any secrets to say, or rather no thoughts or opinion to share...

so, when thinking about it, what kinda pics would I be able to post if I'm only writing my thoughts or opinion? I couldn't think of anything...

& also, it sounds funny to say this, but I feel torn apart about putting up pics. am I putting pics I want ppl to see, or that I would want to see? it's hard to put up a pic to satisfy both, but I can't satisfy everybody who may be reading my blog, so it's kinda funny when I think about it that way ;-P

for example (cos this is the funniest thing I'm thinking of right now), if I were to put gay pics here, I can already hear someone saying "argh!!! you & your gay pics! you freak!" ^^; haha lol I think sometimes I do that juz to piss that person off hehe XP

so anyway, that may be why I'm hesitating to put pics on my blog, but also, as much as I like pics, I just don't feel like putting any pics for no reason cos I'll feel stupid T_T;

& these days I hardly seem to be saving any pics (maybe it's cos of the exams, so I can't fully enjoy myself online? hmm... ;-P) but today I saved this pic that was funny to me, or rather, amusing in a way, so I thought I'd put it up... ;-)

oh! after seeing this pic, I remembered that I must definitely put this one up, cos it's still the most cutest thing I have ever seen! XD

unfortunately for this pic, so far the comments were "slutty" or sth similar to that ^^;

PS: my school teacher (as in, secondary school) called me today... how nice of her~ ;-D
it's good to know once in a while that you are cared for... so if possible, you should call or sms or at least keep in contact with ppl whom you don't see often, unless of course you're not interested in keeping in touch... & btw, I'm not advertising for phones or anything like that ;-P

Eye contact... & relationships?

I have always had an eye contact problem since young, but now it's not so bad, & I don't think so much about it so then I won't really be self-conscious about it... ^^;

My problem was I couldn't stand it if people stared at me, or looked at me too long... I'll feel weird & awkward, & I'll find it hard to look at that person. Actually, a person shouldn't look too long at you anyway, so now that I think about it, I don't think it was a problem last time & it is quite a normal feeling & reaction if someone is staring at you.

I mean, unless you were playing a game or a staring competition, you don't just stare at someone without saying anything. Eye contact when you're talking to someone is good & all, but it's weird to just stare like that. & it's not only that I feel awkward, I also seem to feel scared (when there's no reason to feel that), & so I turn away whenever I feel frightened... ;-(

thank God that's all over now... ;-) I mean, I dun have that fear anymore even if it happens... ;-D

Anyway, I have a few stories (my experiences) to do with eye contact:

Story number 1
This was when I was 13 years old. At that time, I already knew that I didn't like eye contact for too long, & I realised that other people didn't have a problem with it, so I decided that I'll try to improve myself. So, this incident was in the airport in a certain country (can't remember which one T_T;). We were putting our luggage through for it to be scanned, & there was like a security guard watching over the process. & we caught eye contact, & I immediately looked away (bad reaction, & bad habit), so it could've stopped juz like that...

The thing is, I felt bad for doing that, & it juz happen that I remembered that I shouldn't be avoiding eye contact, so I looked back at him, & we caught eye contact again, & I smiled. He smiled back at me too, & then he patted my head, & I felt happy. Then, it seemed that my father saw what happened, cos later on he asked me about it (I can't remember exactly, but it seemed like he wasn't happy about the incident & very suspicious, I dunno why), & I think I tried to explain what I was trying to do, but I could tell he was displeased. At that age, I realised that it had to do with something about growing up, & the fact that I'm not a child anymore (even though they still say that I am), because it's not like someone patting my head is a new thing, it happens when you're a child too, so at that time, I found it strange that my father didn't approve of what happened. To me, it wasn't a big deal.

Story number 2
This was juz recently (as in, this year). It was also not a big deal, but it seems that whenever I think about eye contact & how much have I changed, something happens. Most probably I'm thinking too much about things that people would dismiss easily, but I can't help it. & it's only some things that I think about too much, others I dismiss easily too, so I should write down what actually affected me, rite? ^_^;

Anyway, what happened was, that day, I had met some old ex-schoolmates, & what pissed me off was that we didn't acknowledge each other... but I guess I'm being unfair to the other person as well, bcos although I expect the other person to acknowledge me, I should be the one acknowledging the person also, shouldn't I? I realised that sometimes our culture is like that, although it depends on the person also. Everyone is so scared of losing like an idiot & losing face that they will ignore someone they recognise instead of trying to be friendly. But, I didn't really like the person anyway, so maybe it's better we didn't acknowledge each other... T_T;

So, on the same day, I was cheering myself up & when I was quite happy at one point, I met someone else. It wasn't like there was many ppl around, so what happened was, I passed by this person, & I nearly acknowledged the person (I dunno what I was inclined to do, bow my head a bit or sth), but I didn't. At that time, I was also smiling, so I wasn't sure whether I was smiling at that person too or not... but, that person also looked familiar to me, so I was wondering whether we met at all.

The strange thing that I felt about it was that we were walking past each other, & we were staring at each other for quite a while, not looking away (& not blinking either). & only when we passed each other, did we break eye contact (cos it couldn't be helped). I really felt like looking back, but I didn't. The amusing thing that I was thinking of was maybe we were both blur (I realised that I have this tendency to look straight ahead of me, or juz staring at something without even realising what I'm looking at). XP

Story number 3
This is the most recent that I can remember, & sadly, this is gonna show partly what kind of a person I am *embarrassed*. It was afternoon, like lunchtime, & I was outside at a restaurant (the kind that has buffet). When coming in the place, I noticed there weren't many people, & although I wasn't really paying attention, I did realise that there was a table that was occupied.

Anyway, after we sat down, the person I was with suggested we look at the buffet, so went to look at the buffet. This is the crucial part. You see, that table was occupied by a man (well, he doesn't look that young, at least more than 20 years old), & actually, to be honest, I didn't want to eat buffet, but I juz went along with it juz to walk past him T_T;

haha cos what happened was when walking to our table at 1st, I could feel him staring at me (call me perasan or whatever, but it's juz my feelings), so cos I was curious, I decided to walk past him again to see whether he'd look. & he did! XP

anyway, it's no big deal, I must've been really bored or sth, so I was juz amusing myself... & throughout the lunch, I was trying to sneak peeks at him without making it obvious (cos he looked not bad, so I was curious about him) & guess what happens? His wife & child comes lol ^^;

his wife is quite pretty, & the child is quite cute too... ^^ but I suddenly had this thought in my mind (it's just a thought, ok, it couldn't be helped)...

how do ppl have affairs anyway? I mean, it's in a way one of the taboo things, & yet, there are so many cases all around the world! another common story, although not so common, is a teacher-student relationship... to be honest, I've always liked that kinda relationship (although I know a lot who don't), but that's only if they're still within a tolerable age gap... cos most of the time ppl who don't like the idea of seeing a teacher-student relationship is because of the age difference, & therefore it feels wrong... so it's obvious that they don't have to be a teacher or student, it could juz be the age gap problem...

but I think I like taboo relationships ^^; haha depends on how taboo it is, of course, I can't stand some stories that are really sick cos they seem to go beyond human morals T_T; but yeah, whether real life or story, it feels that the relationship between two ppl is so much stronger when they go through hardship together... but then again, I love happy stories with as little hardship as possible, so of course, the latter is better any time~ <3

but the reason why I was having that stupid thought about affairs (which I hardly think about, least of all when saying a married man) is because of the stupid show I saw the night before that... there was one part where the daughter was having an affair with a married man, & she got pregnant, & she wanted to abort the baby (I think in the end she didn't)... but I felt so irritated with her! why have a relationship, let alone sex, with someone who's already married, & is not interested in anything other than sex with you? so, I thought she was stupid, but ppl can be stupid sometimes (it's their nature) so it can't be helped... I mean, it's that feeling where you know it's wrong, but you still do it... so, I juz pity her, since she got involved in that...


also, it sounds strange to say this, but when you're looking at someone face-to-face, where exactly do you look? generally at their face, rite? at least, I think that should be the case...

the thing is, although I do that, sometimes, I try to look at a person properly (when I think of trying to have eye contact, that is), & when I do, I start having problems. As in, I wonder whether I'm really looking at the person or not, which shows that I shouldn't have thought about it, cos it makes me feel self-conscious.

you see, when I try to look at a person properly, I'll be thinking, "I should look at the eyes". But then, when I look at the eyes, I find it hard to look at both eyes at the same time. It's not easy trying to look with both of your eyes at both of the person's eyes, usually you tend to focus on one thing only.

haha I still find it funny realising this about myself though lol XP

PS: I still have exams next week, & I'm blogging!!! but then again, there are other classmates of mine who are still blogging, but well, I may not be as good as them ^^;