The confession

Ok, here it is. The big confession.

Yeah, rite, who am I kidding? XP

It’s true that it might freak some ppl out, but I think it’s not such a big deal, since those who do know me know *ahem* my inclinations towards… certain things. Anyway, since it is a confession (but, it’s still hard for me to say it), I’m not really gonna beat around the bush anymore, so I’ll go directly to the point & say it (so, I’ll be making this post a lot shorter too).

Ok *takes deep breath* I can do this…

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Argh! I can’t do it!

No, I can!

Fine, I’ll admit it!

I READ GAY COMICS!!!!

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I finally said it, sth that I kept secret for more than 4 mths (ok, fine, there are secrets that I’ve kept for years, so dun think I can’t keep secrets ;-P)…

Did you fall off ur chair? Or maybe scream, “What the hell?” or sth like that? Some ppl would be freaked out over it (I can already think of a few)… haha, the good thing is that hopefully not many ppl I noe will read this post, so it’ll still be quite a secret haha lol XP

Haha maybe some ppl dun even know there are gay comics… I didn’t at first, but then again, I’m super blur about everything… ^^;

Anyway, do you know how frustrating it is to like sth & you juz wanna tell ppl how nice it is, or sth like that, but you have to refrain from mentioning it? It wasn’t my 1^st time feeling frustrated, but still… nobody likes being frustrated… (if you do, then I would call that a fetish)…

So yeah, those who know me may know that I like gay stuff but I dun think they’d expect me to read gay comics ^^;

Let me put up a few covers so you can see what I’ve been doing secretly for the past few months… hehehe… ;-P dun worry, though, it’s nth pornographic haha lol XP

WARNING: NOT MEANT FOR LITTLE CHILDREN

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IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY CERTAIN MATERIAL, IT IS ADVISABLE THAT YOU DO NOT VIEW IT. LOL. HAHAHAHAHAHA

These were the few comics that I started off with, cos I was attracted by the cover… XD

& then I realized that they were by the same artist, which is why the drawings look super similar… ;-D that person is called chi-ran (I love her drawings~), as you can see on the cover (pls ignore any other words you might see in case it offends you XP)… & if you took my friends test, you would know that I did ask a question asking who’s my fav comic artist, but I didn’t put chi-ran there haha ;-P so, I’m not going to give any hints for that answer… but, in the choices there, some of the artists names there were the ones who draw the gay comics, so you wouldn't know whether my fav comic artist was someone who draw a straight comic or a gay comic... XP

*ahem* if you observe the covers, you would probably notice a similarity between them (or maybe it's juz me, looking at them too long XD)...

I juz needed to put this pic bcos although some ppl may find this pic a bit shocking, but this my very fav. gay comic... it was juz a short story, a oneshot, but I love it to bits... XD


actually, there are lots more, but I think I'd better stop putting pics... ^^;



Oh, & I wanted to mention this for quite some time, because I’ve been amused about it for a very long time… it’s about this pic:

You know, this pic is one of my most fav pics & I put it wherever I can, like in my handphone, on msn, & most of the forums that I was in, & none of my frens said anything about it, so I thought, they were probably thinking it was a normal pic when actually it wasn’t ;-D

So yeah, I feel like bursting out laughing saying this, but that pic… is actually a gay pic!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

*ahem* ok, I finished laughing *coughlaughcough*

Hmm, actually, I think that’s about it, cos I really have no idea what else to say anymore… but, I do wanna post up again in a few days time, to put another meaningless post that I find amusing… no more big secrets though… XP

PS: suddenly I remembered one of the reasons why I was frustrated for keeping this secret for so long… it’s also about a comic that I read in a bookshop, & the thing is, there was only one volume, so after I finished reading it, I tried to search for it online, but I couldn’t find it at all, it was like it didn’t exist… then, juz lately, when browsing at the gay section (yes, the place I go to splits it into gay & straight, that kinda thing, cos obviously there are ppl who wouldn’t wanna read gay comics), I saw it! That exact comic!!! In the GAY section!!!!! XD XD

Obviously, I was super shocked, cos I didn’t even know it was classified as gay… but, I was obviously very happy to find one of the comics that captivated me last time, even though I forgot about it for quite some time… ;-P

& then, I realized it was gay because of the 2^nd volume that I hadn’t read yet… unfortunately, the 2^nd volume that I have is not translated, so obviously I didn’t read it… ;-( but, at least now I know it finishes at the 2^nd volume, so I’m waiting for someone to translate it… ^^ here’s the pic that caught my attention:

*sighs dreamily* lovely pic (to me, that is)… too bad if you don’t like cartoon drawings, cos I’ll be putting more up next time, when I’m in the mood, that is… ^__^

De-stress by comic relief

Hi~ ^__^

Actually, I wanted to blog only after exams (yes, I’m having exams this week & yet I’m still wasting time supposedly by blogging lol ;-P), but I promise this is a short post… actually, I wanted to post this before exams instead of during, but it won’t make much difference anyway, & it is supposed to be short… ^^;

This is juz to destress myself & put a pic (I love pics, but of course you can’t expect me to love pics that are… well, anyway everyone has different taste, so it’s better not to say anything ;-X) about studying… actually, it’s from a comic, & I laughed a lot when I saw it the 1^st time, so I guess it’s quite funny… ;-D

also, read it from left to right, up to down, in case you aren't doing so... or else you won't be reading the comic the rite way... ^^;

Btw, the girl's name is miyazawa... then, after that, she got all angry for letting him see sth so embarrassing as that lol XP

Cos in the story, she’s supposed to be sth like the typical smart, pretty, & good (or cool) girl & he’s juz like her, so they were sth like rivals (but actually that was only her point of view, cos he was never really competing with her in the 1^st place ;-P).

Hopefully, after exam (which ends on Thursday), I can blog a bit more, bcos there’s sth I’ve wanted to say for a long time, juz never got around to writing it, bcos it’ll be a longer post, & it’s sth that took me quite some time to prepare myself mentally to tell ppl… in other words, a confession… XD

I think it’s good to vent out ur feelings & all, & also, sort of not hide it, you know? As in, some ppl feel better after telling their probs (not that I’m having any probs that I wanna tell, or at least not major probs), so it applies in the same way of other things I guess, whether good or bad… as in, there’s sth that I’m not ashamed of admitting, so I was wondering, why am I kinda like keeping it a secret? It’s true that I dun really wanna shout it out from the rooftops, but on the other hand, I’m not ashamed of this… so yeah, wait for my next post~ XP

Ok, it wasn’t as short as I wanted it to be, but I’ll be stopping here anyway, whether I can say anything more or not, cos it was more for putting that pic anyway… ;-)

Public holidays & Sundays

Normally, ppl would obviously be happy when it’s a public holiday, cos then they’ll be like, “Yay, can sleep, can rest, can go out” & so on. Nobody would have to work or study on that day, except for those who willingly do it, & those who are probably working in certain jobs like restaurants, shopping malls, cinemas, & hospitals etc.

The thing is, I dun really like public holidays. Of course, I’d prefer a public holiday to a normal weekday, but to me, a public holiday is just like a Sunday, except for the fact that I dun need to go to church. To be honest, I dun wanna go to church, but my parents won’t let me not go, so I go not of my own free will. T_T;

So, to be honest, although since I was young, my least favourite day would be Monday, which is a least favourite day for most normal ppl, I think my least favourite day would be Sunday, which would be for around the same reasons that I dun like public holidays as much as I would have liked to.

Can you guess why?

This may make it seem like my life kinda revolves around this, which is half-true, but I dun wanna think of it that way. It all goes back to my father. Sometimes, I even wonder whether I count as someone that has been traumatized before, but most of the time, I just dismiss it as me being crazy as usual. ^^;

Since I was young, Sunday was a day where I’ll feel horribly trapped at home, even though we went to church & all. It’s like, if I dun study, I’ll get scolded, so I have to study. But, I really don’t want to study, so sometimes I tend to not focus on what I’m studying because I’m so reluctant to study. T_T;

Other than that, I guess Sunday was still ok for me other than the fact that I’m not free to do what I like… now, there’s not much difference, but I’m quite used to it, & it’s true that I do need to use that time to study.

Anyway, this is my 2^nd post where I wrote sth a little more unpleasant which involves my father, so I dun think I’ll be writing these kinda things for a while. That’s also bcos I feel like I’m showing my ugly, dark side, which may not be a good first impression, since these are still my first few posts… --"

But, it's true that I still feel depressed on Sundays normally, but that may be for a different reason... if you really wanna know, you might have to ask me personally, but it'll be hard for me to say it out... most ppl have no idea why though... ;-S

Hopefully, I’ll start thinking of more cheerful things to blog, but I dun think I’ll be able to blog for some time cos of studies, unless I have a death wish or sth… ^^;