Skiing

It’s kinda strange, but for some reason, I never really talked about this other than with my family. Not that I really talked about it with my family either, but the difference is that although I wanted to tell my friends about it, I couldn’t, I’m not sure why. It’s like those things that are sinfully delightful… or maybe not, because the only example I can think of is an affair & skiing doesn’t apply in the same way ^^;

Basically, we went skiing in China also. It was a lot of fun. & it was my childhood dream to ski, ever since I got to ski in Korea when I was 7 years old. At that age, my balance was quite good (it still is now hahahahaha) so it made sense that I loved something which I was naturally good at. Even now, my skiing was fine, so I enjoyed it a lot in China.

Probably the reason why I never mentioned the fact to anyone outside my family was because it was such a big surprise. As in, when I got to skydive, I didn’t expect it either, but to ski?!? My dad obviously planned this for me, which shocked me a lot ^^; I can’t express in words my gratitude & guiltiness at the same time because sadly, I’m the kind who don’t express my feelings very well. & if you’re wondering why I feel guilty, it’s because I feel I don’t deserve it, that’s all. I don’t deserve anything, so I tend to feel guilty when good things happen to me, but on the other hand, I’m super happy & I feel like I take it for granted at the same time.

So that’s why I’m blogging about this, not only because I think skiing is great, & that those who feel more confident in sports (if not sports, then skating) should definitely try skiing if they can, but because I’d like those few people who read my blog to know about it since I can’t tell them directly face-to-face anyway. ;-)

There’s probably only one person who I’d like to tell it to who doesn’t read my blog, so I’m not going to bother to tell that person. Even though I feel a bit sad about that, but I always tell myself that this kinda conversation doesn’t matter anyway, whether I tell or not. I dunno why I feel the need to tell almost everything that happens in my life to other people, but probably it’s normal, just that I have a bit of a problem in expressing myself sometimes, I wonder why. Hahaha ^^;

But in the case of wanting to tell things that happened to me to people, I realised that I only want to tell the good things, the things that made me happy. I do tell the things that made me sad & angry, but that’s on a much smaller scale. Maybe I like telling it because it’s something happy, & it makes me happy, & hopefully it makes other people happy too lol ;-P

Sorry, I talked all about me, myself & that kinda crap instead of my usual description on the topic itself, like “Oh, skiing is wonderful! It’s like cycling downhill, but it’s a different kind of pleasure XD”. I don’t really feel like gushing on about how great skiing was, because it’s more possible to ski than bungee or skydive, & it’s much more cheaper, so the only thing stopping people from skiing (like me) is the place we live in T_T I used to wish Malaysia had 4 seasons, then I stopped wishing, but grumbled about it occasionally because I don’t really like the hot climate here even though I’ve lived here for 18 years ^^;

Maybe also because it’s been at least 3 months since it happened, so if there was anything I wanted to say about the skiing (as in, the description), I forgot all of it. & I can hear someone already saying, “Yala, why you like that wan, now only want to blog it =P”. & I’d defend myself by saying that I’m slow (which is true) & that I was busy (also true), but I probably wouldn’t have taken so long if it wasn’t for the pics that I posted up ^^; so it’s partly my fault, in the sense that I could’ve picked out the nicer pics & posted up less of them, but they all looked nice to me, & I already cut out a lot of other sculptures (maybe not that many, but there’re at least 10 more pics I could’ve put up).

Anyway, sorry if this is kinda long (& boring lol), but it’s been a while since I really blogged (as in, wrote my thoughts down). The previous posts were pics & pics & tags & whatnot hahahaha ^^; I’ve been sidetracked from what I planned this blog to be, but on the other hand, I feel like I’m running out on different thoughts to blog about lol it’s sad, I know, but I did already know that I’m a bit boring & predictable, & my thoughts are the same after a while. Probably the only different thoughts I have are about the manga that I read, which I don’t dare blog about ;-( that’s kinda sad too, but I didn’t think people are interested to read about the manga stories that I read, that’s all. Am I caring too much about what people think? I think that depends on my mood lol but most of the time, I do. But that’s not entirely bad, or wrong, because someone who wants to write a good blog would consider their readers obviously.

But if I cared that much about my readers, I’d blog more often lol ;-P I think I’ll attempt writing about the manga that I read next time, even if people aren’t interested hehe ;-D

My next post will be a tag though ;-( I like doing tags, & I’ve been doing a number of them on facebook, which sorta satisfies my desire (can it be called a desire?), but this will be the last one on my blog for a while, cos I feel that I can put my tags in facebook now, so there’s no need for the blog for that.

I’ll stop now, because I know I can continue on & on, but I’ve said most of my thoughts in the morning (yes, I’m doing this in the morning, right after I woke up). I don’t normally do this, so it’s a bit strange, but it’s ok, like writing in my diary (which I do have, just hardly update anymore ;-( ), & I took around 45 mins doing this post (I think that’s quite long ^^;), but if I wrote in my diary, I’d definitely take much longer because typing is much faster than writing, which is probably I don’t update my diary much. & the reason why I can’t update my blog much is also partly the same reason, in a different way, as in, I can’t blog if I’m not online or using the computer obviously, so I’m unable to blog frequently too. If blogging was like writing in my diary, then I’d probably blog more often lol maybe it’s all just talk, & if it was really true, I’d still be lazy & not blog much at all ^^;

Anyway, gotta stop haha ^^; see you~ ;-)

PS: sorry that there are no pics on skiing ;-( I could put one or two up of how it looks like, but since I didn’t talk much about skiing anyway (so I should change the post title lol), I don’t feel like putting up the pics.