My table, dog and food

I said that I was cleaning my room and rearranging stuff right? well, I still haven't really finished cleaning my room ^^; I don't know why I keep procrastinating like it, cos I don't really mind doing it, & yet, I just don't feel like doing it, so it never gets done. And I sorta arranged 50% of it, and I felt so satisfied that I forgot about arranging the remaining mess (cos it didn't seem so important anymore).

but anyway, I thought I'd show you a glimpse of the mess ;-D

ipod ^__^ and more DVDs and most of my chargers lol

well, I sorta cleaned up my table, but it probably still looks as messy as ever, but in my eyes, it's much less messy. just a number of papers scattered about on my table, & my DVDs are still there, cos I haven't thought of a place to put it other than on the table which would be the most convenient for me... probably that's another reason why I haven't thoroughly finished arranging my room, cos I have some loose ends here and there, which I'm not sure where to keep or display ^^;



another thing that I've wanted to blog about for quite a while is my dog, and I thought I'd make a separate post of him, but I changed my mind, cos I don't have that much to say about him T_T

I don't look after my dog very well, and I'm not the kind to mention my dog in conversations, so people either think that I don't like my dog, or that I don't care about it. well, I don't care what other people think about me regarding my dog. I love my dog in my own way, and I'm aware that what I may say or do may not be considered as loving my dog, but that's the way I am.

Kinda like the way people love each other, now that I think about it. Nobody's a perfect lover, or even a good one. But that doesn't mean they aren't happy together. Not that I'm saying that my dog is happy with me as an owner lol.

I'd rather not be the owner either actually, since I get sneered for it in my own family (because I don't look after it properly), but if me being the owner in name would let my dad buy a dog for the family, I was willing to do it. Partly for myself also, cos at that time when we bought this dog, it was like one year after our first dog died, so we (including me) were all a bit sad without a dog.

his name is Blackmore. And normally you can't see much cos he's all black lol except his tongue of course. it's funny at night, cos if it's dark and the lights are off, at the most, you just see a black mound or something hahaha

this is one of his expressions that I love XD he has this expression on either when he looks guilty, or when he wants to be petted. if there's one thing that I know of about Blackmore, it's his expressions. But probably many dog owners would know their own dog's many expressions.

I forgot to mention that I was spending my time also learning how to cook. I took some pics, but lots were blur, so I'm not gonna show my lousy photography skills here ;-P but these 2 pics are ok, i think...

I really dislike vege. But I still have to learn to cook it. And it's actually the easiest dish to cook (other than rice of course lol).

the finished product. I've come to the conclusion that if not most Chinese cooking, then most of the Chinese cooking that my family eats all have garlic in it. Nearly everything that is cooked starts with the oil, then garlic.

And I thought salt was the essential ingredient that people took for granted lol

Charlie Chaplin

I said I'll post more about a certain singer, right? well, he's not really a singer lol. & if anyone was curious enough, they could've already googled the song anyway.

but I wanted to post separately about him. Because he has a special place in my heart <3

lol I'm serious, but I'm sure there're quite a lotta people (celebrities) that also hold places in my heart too, just that I don't write about them. But I do think that Charlie Chaplin is one of the best comedians ever XD

I think I need humour & love (& money obviously) most in my life, so most of the things that I like are either funny, or romantic. but i don't want people thinking my head is up in the clouds all the time, so I refrain most of the time from posting anything remotely romantic ^^; I seem to constrain myself a lot...

so without further ado, I'll juz post a few clips of him here ^__^


I checked out a few on youtube, & I think this was one of the scenes I enjoyed more ^__^





his famous bread roll dance, altho in this video, i think that the audio is slightly slower than the video, but no matter





actually, this movie was the 1st movie I saw, City Lights, & I felt that this was one of the funniest parts in the movie, but watching it now doesn't feel so funny ^^;





what's with his stomach hahahaha so weird. I get that too, sometimes, so I can relate to him ;-P




btw, I've been really lazy, so that's why I'm so inactive on my blog ^^; sorry, but I'm busy enjoying my holiday. not doing much though, & it's scary how the time just passes by. I mean, it's already middle of july wth T_T soon my hols will be over ;-(

it's not helping that I don't know what to blog about, because some of my thoughts feel too private to blog about, so I'd rather still keep them a secret ^^; I guess, I don't like the idea of anyone knowing me too well if they didn't even spend a certain amount of time with me

but just so you know what I've been doing the past week, it was mainly cleaning my room, rearranging stuff, reading a book in between (I read VERY slowly), reading comics (I don't mention this often, but I still read comics a lot), watching youtube... that's about it

I'm a bit obsessed with deviantArt at the moment too XD it kinda started yesterday lol but it's been building up for a while, like, a few weeks? it takes time for me to start obsessing on sth, but if it was a show or story it probably takes just an hour at least lol

I'm bad at stopping my blogging, so I'll stop here, since I dunno wat to say anymore ^^;

Ramblings

I sorta wanted to focus on blogging the most in my hols, but find tt my mind is still as blank as ever. Writer's block?

And as usual, the few times I feel that I have sth good to write, it's normally when I'm not in front of a computer, so I forget what I wanted to blog *shakes head* I keep on repeating the same old mistakes, it's frustrating.

Also, I feel rather depressed. Because if I pass, I've to start working, & I don't know a thing about CV or interviews, & to learn how to do all that... I wish I could run away, seriously. On the other hand, if I fail, I can escape that for the moment, but I have to resit what I failed, which is quite horrible, because there's no guarantee that I'll pass even if I resit T_T so I know it's not worth failing to escape this because I've to face it eventually, but I did rather badly in the exams, so only if a miracle happens, I'd be able to pass.

So I'm trying not to think about it, cos no point having all this go through my head everyday when I can only wait for my results. So I end up just lying & lazing around. I really do feel lazy, not sure why. As in, normally I don't feel that lazy.

I'm normally lazy, but when it comes to my entertainment, I can spend the whole day indulging myself in "useless things" (what my father says). But now, I don't feel like doing anything at all. So that kinda sucks.

& a week of my hols has passed, & I wonder what I did during that time, cos I don't feel like I really indulged in anything that I usually indulged in previously. Time just passes by in a flash *sighs*

but I think I'm getting a bit used to it, indulging in my hobbies (or whatever I like doing). as in, because I was feeling particularly depressed lately, I started not caring again about anything (happens mostly at night tho). When I have moods like that, it's much easier to do what I want to do somehow, not sure why. Times passes by, & by the time I realise it, it's super late, & I should've slept hours ago (ok maybe one hour lol), & I start losing sleep.

but then I'm not a very good sleeper anyway, so usually when I lack sleep I sorta feel sleepy & then I'll be able to sleep earlier or longer on other days. & that's how my life goes.

blogging takes up quite a lotta time for me, if I want to say something meaningful cos unfortunately things just don't come so naturally for me. but for all the crap I said just now it doesn't take up much time, because these are all the thoughts shouting in my head, wanting to get out for days, but I was reluctant to let them out because I wouldn't want to read them if I were you, that's all.

but I couldn't stand it anymore, & it's better to let it out rather than to keep it in, & to not blog, cos then it's like I'm not reciprocating people's feelings, those who check my blog, something like that. because I do blog for people to read. even if I don't really do a good job about it. but anyone who reads my blog is my friend (in a way).

if you read my blog, it means you're just like all those people whom i talk to who don't read my blog, because you would know me, but in different ways.

suddenly i feel like i've totally diverged from whatever i was blogging about, but it's ok, that's why the title is ramblings.


speaking of diverge, I like it when I talk to ppl & then I realise how the flow of conversation went. sometimes it jumps. like i could be talking about the meal, & the particular chicken reminded that person (or me) about something that just happened the other day, & maybe what happened had to do with a waitress, & i'll start talking about someone we both know who did part time waitress somewhere & how it was like, & so it'll go on.

actually the example i gave was kinda a normal flow. the kind that jumps from one topic to another could be like me talking about a cute dog i saw & my friend suddenly asks about whether i feel seasick easily. i find it amusing when that kinda random thing happens, but just to tell you, if this happens to you, it could be that the person wasn't really listening to you & was in their own thoughts.

but i hope you don't get too cynical, like me, cos that person could've really been listening to you, & just happened to think of ships when you talked about the dog. like, maybe that person just saw a show which had a sailor with a cute, faithful dog, & that dog was on the ship. then you can understand the correlation. but only if your friend is good enough to explain the link (or maybe if you asked).

so in the same way, i like how my own thoughts flow & jump. actually, i just meant to ramble a bit, not too long, then just when i was ending, i thought about how much i liked flow of conversations (which I don't think I ever talked about) & started sharing it with you, & it all came very naturally, & became this long lol

so when I realised what I just did, I was gonna edit all that I just said about conversations & put it into a separate post all by itselt lol but i think it's kinda amusing what i just did, so i'm leaving it here ^_^ natural, like how it should be, with all my long-windedness ;-P

not professional, but who cares? it's MY blog XD

i'm sick & tired of professional things sometimes, cos I am well aware of how incapable I am at everything, so I'm just gonna at least enjoy myself with this blog, & be professional only if I'm in the mood ;-)

oh ya, wanted to share a video that I really like here



there're elements that I don't like in here, like the thing about breaking things just for a show, but looking at this video which is a success makes me think that there're probably lots of intangible things that are broken (failures experienced), but we'll succeed one day ;-) & it'll be worth it ^__^

A song that could lift me when I'm down ;-)

Swing Little Girl

Swing Little Girl,

Swing, high, to the sky,

And don’t ever look at the ground,

If you’re looking for rainbows,

Look up, to the sky,

You’ll never find Rainbows,

If you’re looking down,

Life maybe be dreary,

But never the same,

Some day(s), it’s sunshine

Some day(s), it’s rain,

Swing Little Girl,

Swing high, to the sky,

And don’t ever look to the ground,

If you’re looking for rainbows,

Look up to the sky,

But never, no never, look down,

* I'll post more about the singer next time XD

Pisa

again, so sorry for not posting anything for so long. i seem to be apologising on this blog a lot lately ^^;

i've finished 2 exams & but i still have one more exam next week, but since i've finished 2/3 of my exam, i feel much lighter edi, & not so guilty abt posting here ^^ it's like, i feel guilty about wanting to blog, but at the same time i feel guilty for not blogging, what's with that haih

so i gave in haha, & decided to post. and instead of ranting about my exams, or how stressed i am, i'm gonna post something that makes me happy ;-) because i'm the kinda person who pushes unpleasant things to the back of my mind & focuses on the happy things only. of course, that doesn't mean that i'm not studying, but well... yeah, i'm not gonna talk about that ;-P

will juz be posting some pics on Pisa, cos i really liked those buildings there. so white & so nice *___* lol

when we came in through the gates, the view was sth like this - awesome XD & i know it's not obvious in the pic, but in real life the buildings looked huge & it was really breathtaking ^__^

the 1st building

the gates surrounding the building. an example of people resting on their day off. if i lived in that kinda place, i'd be lying on the grass too ;-(

2nd building. i think the 3rd building behind it is a cathedral

tower of pisa!!! ^___^

dunno whether it's obvious, but all those faces are different ;-D

random

lastly, another closer shot on the tower of pisa XD i felt quite stupid cos i only realised this when we left pisa, my family & i didn't go closer to the tower, even though i wanted to, you know, for fun, cos you're not supposed to go near in case it starts sinking hehehe. but this was probably the closest i was ;-( still not so bad, but it would've been better to go right to those bars there lol or even that trash can

i'm not sure whether i mentioned this earlier, but this trip was a tour, not free and easy, so we had a very limited time there, like one to two hours only T_T so no, there wasn't enough time to go in the tower of pisa, & i think there was a waiting list kinda thing, so yeah, definitely can't go. still good enough to see it up close anyway ^^

i din post up a picture of the cathedral cos i didn't have any good shots on it ^^; and i posted less than 10 pics haha so it feels not so bad ;-D this post didn't take much of my time~ ;-D

altho i obviously din finish, i'm gonna stop posting pics from my trip bcos i feel like i'm not really writing anything meaningful, & when i do this, my mind feels kinda blank cos i'm not thinking of wat to blog next, cos it's easy to juz post pics only (juz time consuming).

so i'll try to write more meaningful things after my exam, or at least not put pics for a while, if tt's possible ^^; if i really hv nth to blog, i'll resort to my pics again. cos i din talk abt my trip fr japan at all, i think i wld like to do tt at least, even if i went to japan in 2008 ^^;

but after my exam, i plan to do one last post of pics on venice, because that was the part i enjoyed the most on my trip, & i took lots of pics tt day ^__^ so be prepared to be bombarded with pics for the next post! by the end of this month, i should think ;-D

Rome

so sorry for the late update ^^; been really busy & stuff, & wasted my time on some stupid power point presentation, but it's over now! XD dun really wanna talk abt things tt I dislike, so let's get back to italy lol ^__^

so after Vatican, we went back to Rome. 1st thing we saw was the Colosseum XD the only thing I knew about Rome & therefore the one only thing I was looking forward to seeing in Rome

but before that, a few pictures of scenic view along the way...<

I think this is the parliament building. anyway, I think it looks quite nice, but that's cos it's all white, & I like the statues of horses at the top of the building ^__^

it seems to be normal to see ruins in between modern buildings in Rome *envious*

it's too bad we didn't go closer to those ruins. actually they reminded me of Jordan

the Colosseum! XD did I mention that it was the only place that I knew about, & was looking forward to going to in Rome? lol

I forgot how much it cost, but mainly because there was only an allocated of time allowed to spend there, we didn't go in ;-( & because there's a really long line, & lots of people. so we decided to go round the outside of the whole Colosseum instead lol XD I don't think anyone else in the group did that, but maybe they did, because then what else could they have been doing? *puzzled*

so you can see why these bars are in the pic. obviously only poor people would take pic of the inside from the outside lol but it was fine, kinda fun anyway

this pic was taken with my hand through the bars. couldn't help wondering why I didn't think of it earlier, or more importantly, why the hell did I still take pic of the bars if I could put my hand through the bars?!? >_>

this shows the underground level of the Colosseum. they actually had a sorta contraption like an elevator to bring up the animals (cos the animals were in the dungeons underground) to the battle grounds. AWESOME XD XD

juz some graves of some poor, unfortunate gladiators

see? the cross shows we went one whole round, or rather, to the other side of the Colosseum, & the cross seems to be somewhere in the center

these are the ruins around the Colosseum. but if you ask me what they are, I have no idea

another view of the Colosseum ^^ I envy those people up there in the Colosseum

if you're wondering why the Colosseum looks like they have two layers, it's cos the outer one is the new layer. I think it's because the old layer is breaking down, sth like that ^^;

after that, we went to see the Travis fountain & the Spanish steps. Turned out we went to see the steps first because it was more convenient.

these are the steps. nope, nothing special about them. juz that the Spanish govt sponsored them, or something like that

I took a pic of the steps anyway, since they're so special. the coloured stuff are the confetti. kids are throwing it all around, there was a celebration of some sort (I think)

the view when walking down the steps. the other pic was when looking back upwards

I must seem like an idiot, but I've never seen water chestnuts looking like that (as in, on a vine)

we were left to walk around a bit before going to the Travis fountain, so this is kinda what it looked like after going down the steps

this is another church that we found while walking around. all the churches have very nice decoration

a great king who did a lotta good stuff. so they drew a halo on his head lol

can you see it now? XD

jesus when he was 12 years old (presumably)

this made me laugh, so I took a pic. it's a confession box! hehe ;-D

CREPES *______* juz had to try one. you wouldn't believe how excited I was. & if you didn't know that I juz absolutely love crepe, well, you haven't been in my company very much

wtf look at all that nutella

bought the nutella crepe. wasn't that great, juz nutella ;-(

I prefer the kind with whipped cream, & maybe caramel XD

later on, we also ate ice cream lol but forgot to take picture

an obelisk from egypt. not sure whether real or not

Travis fountain XD I liked it a lot

you were supposed to try a coin backwards over your left shoulder with your right hand. or was it your right shoulder with your left hand? either way, I forgot, but I did it, & it felt damn awkward. I swear, I nearly hit somebody with the coin lol

a convenience store, so I took a few pics

CHEESE ^__^

this made me laugh too

& this ;-D

that's about it. now for the dinner pics lol. juz wanted to say, I'm not the kinda person who puts food pics in my blog. but for italy & austria, I'm willing to make an exception ;-D only gonna put in the pizza pics though

freaking huge >_> but I like lol XD

that's all. hope I can post again soon ^__^ if not, then... well, sorry about that ^^;